Random: BJJ as escape/coping mechanism

BJJ is my escape. I'm going through pretty severe depression, and I thought it would affect my tournaments. I actually haven't lost one of the last ten matches since I got depressed--It's like my drive to distract myself got much stronger. In spite of that, it still feels so meaningless when I'm sitting at home. But so does everything. So I just keep rolling. BJJ is the cliff edge of my sanity I'm holding onto.